And this is how a heart breaks!

Just started listening to it. Its pretty cool, was sung by Rob Thomas, who is apparently the lead singer for Matchbox 20.

Just for those who are interested, Destiny's next chapter will only come in December most probably. Reasons include a lost of inspiration, lack of time, and a tendency to want to complete my half done oneshots and start off my new series. Also, the plot starts to get more complicated in Destiny, so I need more time to properly work out the kinks.

The experience of reading American Gods has almost been completely ruined. Anurak kept bloody telling me it was all a conspiracy, and I shall not reveal details here. And in the morning, Ren Jie looked at me and suddenly said "Shadow is *********'s son." Then i went WTF, because i have only about 100 pages left and you tell me that.

Wtf man, wtf. And all the teachers are starting to spam holiday planning and homework on us.

And the irony has fallen on me. I've become the very thing i was avoiding.

I'm in a dilemna. Is it better to struggle futilely against the seemingly stable cosmos or is it easier to swallow one's pride and give in?

Sometimes, achievements bring out the worse in people. Its pretty obvious when it happens. Funny thing is that achievements are kinda rare for me, so *shrugs*, I guess it doesn't really happen. Even at gaming, like Halo 3, I laugh at myself, becuase there was a time that I actually thought I was good at the game.

Yes, this entire post is in shambles. But it accurately reflects how i'm feeling right now. I need to gather my thoughts.

All the results have been returned, just waiting for the APR to confirm everything. Most probably no moderation will be made, but i'm still hoping for a slight moderation for English.

What can i say? It could've been much better, it could've been much worse. But the results i got now was the most probable anyway.

Got a bloody irritating sore throat. I kept shouting at the Sec 1, soon to be Sec 2s, and talking alot. Damnit lah. I actually got the sore throat during the day, when it was still progressing. That means when i wake up tomorrow, will be dang pain.

And I'm getting a phone plan soon, so will be changing number. Yes, i've been using card, laugh away for those who want to.

DoT chapter 11 is up.

And as the year draws to an end, I'm going to do something that I feel obligated to. A thanks post for the people in my class and whatnot.

1. Aditya

Yes, you could argue that Aditya isn't in our class anymore. But still, he's a part of the class register list, and our classmate for the first half of the year. I'm pretty damned sure he can't see this, but *shrugs*.

Thanks for drawing the cheem-shit physics stuff for me man, really. Although I only understood what happened in term 1 when I was chionging physics during term 4, your explanations actually made sense. Take things easy man.

2. Anurak

Yes, fine, muscle-bound anurak. Your hamartia would be...an injury aura that hangs around you. Even if you don't intend to, you hurt people. Physically of course. So just take it easy haha.

Yes, you getting killed by neutral creeps provided a much needed laugh at the first class lan. Ur a good guy, just take things easy.

3. Bhargav

The class monitor. Yeah, man, as long as you don't become so damned competitive (believe it, you are), ur an OK guy.

Oh, and stop drinking my waterbottle's water without my permission, seriously its not funny. Lol.

4. Edene

Yeah sorry, Edene, I don't know much about you argh. Err, take it easy on the door, i think your hardcore humping it the other time really spoiled the hinge or something haha.

5. Chester

Hey yo, Sean Kingston yo. Lol, thats what you always say to me. Yeah well, BRING YOUR OWN WATERBOTTLE LAH. Sorry, I was overreacting abit. Nice bball, just sometimes abit blur in class haha. Oh, and im trying to avoid talking about lameness and stuff.

6. Ravins

Stop and stare. Hero of War. Savior. We share the same music tastes... i think *thumbs up*! Nice man, never bully during basketball haha. A really hardworking guy. Improvements...hmm. Oh yeah, stop showing your affection by physically assaulting me. Lol.

7. Chen Wei

What an asshole man, this guy. Damn bastard. Loser. Hey wait thats me.

And the rest will come when I feel like it.

Yes, I owe you people pics. Meh, but i hate connecting my phone to the comp, so *shrugs* whatcha gonna do?

Swam a little today, but couldn't enjoy anything, because the aching in my shoulder and arms after playing bball for 4 hours got to me. Yes, i know it's light bballing, but im so wimpy that I actually get tired.

And so, new personal goal. Buff up my arms, at least a little. Seriously, I'm the same type as Nicholas, we eat more, but end up crapping everything out and not gaining weight. I'm pretty fed-up of everyone telling me to eat more, and not to starve myself when im hungry. They even have a term for people like us, hard gainers. No idea if haozhi is a hardgainer though.

I mean, I go on a bus, and i see girls who's arms are like my size. The only diff is that I'm slightly tanner, and in some circumstances, i'm not tanner.

It may sound like I'm bitchy, maybe I am, but you peops have to remember that I've been facing this for the last 15 years. Ever since I can remember, people have been telling me to eat more veggies, exercise more etc. Yeah, that got me somewhere.

And to end it off the haozhi/ Jin Fu/ Ye Oon/ Jon Ed, A.K.A. the "not telling much" way.

I had a nice, sincere convo today and for the last few days. =)

Hope you guys have been having a good holiday.



For those extremely sensitive, its a parody of Resident Evil 5.

After EOYS, everyone's blog is miraculously reviving themselves. And also, more people are advertising their blogs. I went to sam's blog, saw Johnson from Chiangrai, went to my blog, saw Nigel advertising his blog, went to haozhi's blog, saw jerome advertising his blog, went to anurak's blog, before I was assaulted by Johnson's link again. Amazing.

And just brief updates.

No need to wear back brace anymore yeah yeah!

OIP training.

NPCC national event.

And DoT chapter 11 is taking a hell of a long time to come out. Like no inspiration. Stuck at 2.3k words, and I need to at least double it before releasing the next chapter. Hence, I had previously released a little bit, just to keep whoever who reads it interested haha.

And I have noticed that I had actually been cut deeper than I thought i have. Memories of my past failed leaderships still haunt me deeply, to the extent that I didn't want to take any leadership roles in my OIP to Vietnam. I really need some time to just stay at home and think about what I want to do with my life. In the rest of RI and RJ that is.

Do I want to continue down this path of pain? Continue striving, hoping, dreaming, only to be brought down?

Or do I want to stay safe? Follow, not lead, free of all responsibility?

The usual me would pick the former without hesitation. He will strengthen himself through pain. But how much pain can I take?

Doubts flood my mind. I don't even think that I'm a good leader. I'm not charismatic, confident or able to think on the spot. I can't organise stuff efficiently even. Is it just my fate to follow?

Everytime I break free of the mist of doubt, I discover another. Everytime I break out of the cocoon, ready to start afresh, I discover I am within another cocoon.

I don't know. I need to sort out my life. This stupid thing is ruining my post EOYS happiness, but it couldn't have come at a better time. This is the best time to reflect.

In case you guys are wondering, yeah, the ACCAL thing plays a huge role in my self-doubt, but many other stuff does too. I'm trying to learn, to improve, but there's only so much I can do.

He will achieve enlightenment through sacrifice.

I can only hope that when I reach the end of my journey, I realise that it has been worth it.

On a lighter note, I sorta learned how to do overhead shooting for basketball. Yeaaaaa! But i'm still useless in a real game.

Bball schedule for today: 10-2 bball zz.

Just a sneak preview of chapter 11. For the few people who actually read it lol.

“Synchronization.” Raccious held out both hands, gripping the onyx wand tightly. “Consume the living. Venom!”

In a dark flash of arcane energy, the wand morphed itself into a staff that bore a similar appearance.

Raccious cast a Magic Guard around him, preparing to engage in combat with the Yeti. Instantly, a semi-permeable, almost transparent bubble shield formed in a short radius around him. Although the aqueous barrier looked thin and fragile, it could take a hard beating, having saved Raccious’ ass many times. His left hand scooped a pile of snow, and flung it at the Yeti.

“Tools of Malice.” The snow transformed itself into glowing black icicles, all of whom soared towards the Yeti with deadly accuracy. It was a rather basic technique, imbuing makeshift projectiles with darkness energy to pelt enemies.

A handful buried themselves in the Yeti’s chest, while the others scattered themselves onto the Yeti’s arms and legs. The pain inflicted caused the Yeti to bellow a resounding battle cry- which shook the very mountain they were on. It started its charge at Raccious, determined to crush this intruder.

“Corruption.” Raccious calmly gestured with his staff, to have a beam of dark energy materialize. It cut through the air speedily, snuggling in the chest of the Yeti, who paid no heed to it. Almost instantly, dark spots started appearing on its body.
Raccious allowed himself a tiny satisfactory smile. The Corruption Spell was the necromancer’s answer to Bless. Instead of granting the user the power to buff allies, it gave the user the ability to nerf enemies. Necromancery was never based on defense, defence never won any battles. Offence certainly did. The Yeti now had lowered defense, attack and avoidability. It cued the main offensive dish.

“Lilith’s Judgement.” Raccious held his staff in front of him, dark arcane energy splashing itself over the staff. The energy shaped itself to the shape of a bow, and nocked to the staff was an arrow of pure corruption. Raccious took aim at the chest of the Yeti- its heart.

Lilith’s Judgement, a technique that Raccious had coined himself, required Raccious to materialize his arcane energy. It was only after painstaking efforts that Raccious had even managed to finally carry out the technique without the bow crumbling to pieces in front of his eyes. He had been practicing the technique ever since his parents’ deaths. It had been their wish to experience a day when necromancers had their own elemental version of arcane arrows.

Raccious held his breath for a split second, making sure that his aim was true. With steady hands, he unleashed the pent-up power of the arrow, sending it straight at the Yeti. The arrow itself seemed to possess a will of its own; the killing intent that radiated from it was immense.

Even the intellectually challenged Yeti could sense that the attack spelt danger. With not enough time to dodge the attack completely, it swiftly swayed its body to the side.

The arrow pierced through the Yeti’s shoulder, tearing the tendon there to shreds of flesh. Even its thick hide couldn’t prevent it from getting damaged. Bits of pinkish flesh littered the ground around the Yeti.

Raccious smirked. His newly acquired technique had been well worth the effort invested to master it. Dedicating every waking moment of his life ever since he “lost” to Laran in order to master the technique had paid off. He now wielded an incredible power. The remnants of the dark energy swirled around his arm like a mist clinging tightly to the grave. Then, everything went to hell.

A vision suddenly splashed across Raccious’ mind. “Nggh!!” Raccious bit his lip, furiously trying to suppress the sudden outburst of seizing pains. This was no headache- it was pure crippling pain.

The arcane bow collapsed into dust, as Raccious pressed his hand against his left eye. Wincing, he uncontrollably shut his left eye. And as expected, he saw the image in his mind’s eye yet again. The image of an indistinct figure sitting on a throne was incredibly glaring.

This was not the first time it had occurred. Over the last few weeks, visions of the being that was shrouded in shadow had, for the lack of a better term, haunted him. It seemed to spring out more frequently whenever he performed techniques that directly drew on the element of darkness; something that Raccious had been quick to notice.

Raccious shook his head wildly, trying to banish the rapidly escalating pains, when the Yeti started storming towards him again. The ground shook, as the Yeti’s heavy feet clashed against the snow.

“Bastard!” Raccious struggled to his feet, shakily raising his staff towards the Yeti.

“Shadolt!” He felt the surge of energy gather at the tip of the staff’s orb; the familiar darkness energy was shaping into a ball. Time was a luxury that he could not afford in this situation. The moment he felt it take shape, he hurriedly flung it at the Yeti.

Somehow, he managed to direct the shadow bolt towards the Yeti. The slow-moving bolt of energy was easily evaded by the Yeti who leapt over it. The furry beast was heading straight for Raccious; its fists were curled together, positioned as an overhead smash.

“Come on!” His arcane energy was slipping from his grasp, like grains of sand through his hands. He needed time to recuperate- time to recover his energy.

Raccious slammed his staff with such strength that it protruded through the snow. He took a deep breath, for he knew that the next technique he cast-if it failed-, would cost him dearly.

Heh, went for class bonding yesterday.

Basically, dota, cs, dota, sentosa, soccer, basketball. Pretty damned fun though. Got a pic of us camwhoring, but I'm waiting for everyone else to post on their blogs before i post. Like simultaneous spamming.

And err, ended up spamming 23 bucks in total. Vivo City's view is real romantic. Bunch of guys standing there ain't very cool though haha. But it's real peaceful. Can go there write poems and such lol.

I'm probably going to run a little.

And once again.
Those thoughts that roamed my mind
Thoughts that were long forgotten
resurfaced.
I'm so confused.
Once again

Another day, another 23 bucks gone. Details tomorrow.

I'm honestly happy that the EOYS are finally over. For me anyway, they are over. And a hell lot of people are too, judging from the various dps of IT IS OVER and GAME OVER.

But, remember, there are still the AEP, MEP, CEP and whatever, plus third lang people taking EOYS tomorrow. I wish them all the best in their exams. Especially to Nigel and Nicholas and Yihang, whom probably won't see this.

Nigel+ Nicholas= Cmon, get a bloody 4.0 for Malay lah, just mug the stuff like crazy.

Yihang= Fucking own the test bro. That 3.6 is just waiting for you.

And its kinda my personal tradition to not talk about tests after they are done, so *shrugs*.

Basically today was just some light bball. At least i got abit of my feel back. A bit lah.

And to breath life into my blog, A BLOG QUIZ. According to Sufyan, blog quizzes "tell you more about the blogger's personality", and they also are "a proper post". I was laughing at him. But oh well, here comes a quiz. Yeaaaaaah, ripped it off Nic's blog haha.

01.Single, taken, naked or flirt?
Single.

02.Are you happy with that?
Err, yeah i guess.

03.Would you still kiss your ex?
Wa lau, suan me lah, I no ex haha.

04.Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes. Many, many times.

05.Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
What, the relationship cheating? Exam cheating? Vague! This has caused you to lose the A+ grade that we lit people desire so much!

06.Have you ever talked about marriage?
To myself.

07.Do you want children?
Yeah i guess haha.

08.How many?
Stop bleeding touching on the issue damnit.

09.If someone like you now, would you want them to tell you?
Hmm. Probably yes. But then sometimes i do stupid things after knowing. Thinks back to pri sch.

10.Do you want someone you cant have?
Tsk. I believe in my err, personality haha. Yeah, it didnt answer the question, but what the heck.

11.Have you ever been in love?
What kind of love? Crushes, definitely yeah.

12.Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Hmm. A yes from me.

13.What would you say about you recent ex?
Wtf, the question is coming back to repeatedly stab me in the ass. No ex damnit.

14.Does your ex still have feelings for you?
Eh come on lah.

15.Do you believe in long distance relationship?
Haha, sure, why not?

16.Do you believe in love at first sight?
Crush at first sight yes. Love, nope.

TRUTHS ABOUT ME

01.Are you perfect?
Not at all.

02.Are you tall?
Slightly below average. Damn.

03.Are you short?
Slightly above short. Damn,

04.Are you in your pyjamas?
Nope.

LAST

01.The last friend you saw?
Err...Jin Fu. Bballing.

02.Last talked on phone to?
My mom. Lol.

03.Last person to text you?
Ravins haha.

FAVOURITES

01.Number?
84

02.Colour?
I dunno. Not some guai colour can le.

03.Food?
I dunno. As long as no tomatoes or celery, we're cool.

QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS

01.What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
I went to on my comp.

02.Do you have anything bother you?
Loads.

03.Whats the last movie you watched in the theatres?
Err, Dark Knight i believe.

04.Where is the last place you went?
RI, then home.

05.Do you smile a lot?
Err, yeah.

06.Do you wish upon stars?
Occasionally, when I'm high.

07.Are you a friendly person?
Depends on my mood. Yeah, im moody.

08.Where did you have your sleep last night?
My room.

09.When was the last time you cried?
Hmm. Last time I teared was when I listened to Hero Of War. It was just so damned beautiful. Last time i actually cried was the night after I lost the ACCAL position. Yeah, I'm a whimpy bitch, happy?

10.What was your last thoughts before going to bed?
The Lit paper today.

11.Rate life as of it now,one being bad,ten being great?
8.5.

12.What do you hear right now?
My sister shouting, my mom shouting, and Trust in You by the Offspring playing in the background.

13.Does anything hurt you right now?
The cut above the bridge on my nose that happened today when Xin Yong tried to snatch the ball from me, argh.

14.What your favourite month?
I dunno. It wouldn't be fair to the other months. Lol.

EMOTIONS

01.Are you missing someone right now?
Missing my dad. He's at work haha.

02.Are you tired?
Yeah, kinda.

03.Are your parents still married?
Yup.

BASICS

01.Real name?
Chen Wei. Fine, Chia (Chiap) Chen Wei.

02.Eye colour?
Brown. Damn, I want green or something haha.

03.Male or Female?
Male.

04.Crushing?
Nope, I finished listening to David Archuleta's crush before it become popular =).

05.Hair colour?
Black.

06.Sweats or jeans?
Jeans.

07.Phone or Camera?
Hmm. Thats a tough one. One is appealing to my social life, the other my photographer instincts. Phone, because it has a lower quality camera haha.

08.Health freak?
OK lah.

09.Righty or Lefty?
Right handed.

10.Smoke or drink?
Boy, do I enjoy my iced lemon tea.

FIRST

01.First best friend?
Nicholas Low I guess.

02.First enemy?
Can't remember the guy's name. Meh, it was childish.

03.First vacation?
I think my parents took me to London when i was 2 or 3.

CURRENTLY

01.Eating?
Nah.

02.Drinking?
Plain water, argh.

03.Listening to?
Ahh, currently its Dynamo of Volition by Jason Mraz.

04.Plans tmr?
LAN then Sentosa. ZZ sentosa...

WHICH IS BETTER FOR THE OPPOSITE GENDER?

01.Lips or Eyes?
Hmm, eyes i guess.

02.Shorter or Taller?
Shorter. Heh.

03.Romantic or Spontaneous?
Yaaaay romantic. Lol.

04.Sensitive or Loud?
Sensitive.

05.Hook-up or being in a relationship?
I don't understand these relationship terms! Daaaaaaamn.

HAVE YOU EVER?

01.Drank hard drinks?
Yeah, that chinese herbal medicine took the crap outta me.

02.Lost glasses or contacts?
If you consider having a 90kg guy bulldoze over your specs in gym module, then yes.

03.Ran away from home?
Nope. How can I survive on my 3 hour battery power IPOD?

04.Broken someone's heart?
Yeah, I did.

05.Been arrested?
By the nerdy prefect police in school.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

01.Do you like someone?
I like salad.

02.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life now?
Honestly, yes.

FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
Just take the dang quiz.

My favourite band is probably Rise Against.

Favourite artist...too many.

Murakami is on the list for some Australian Book Prize thing! Good for him.

I promise, a proper update soon haha.

Update of the day.

Jason Mraz is awesome. Yes, I have been influenced by JF, yet he has not been influenced by the metal music that I listen to. C'mon, Rise Against rawks!

Hey guys. As you can see, i'm getting lazier. Not updating much muahahha.

So yeah, just a couple of things i came to terms with recently.

1. First Class (The TV Series on Channel 5)
2. PDA viewing with Jin Fu. Err, i mean viewing it with him...not...the...other...way...around.

First Class is...lousier than i expected. Calefare is...lousier than I expected. I mean, America has FRIENDS, Two and a half men, Simpsons. Japan has these awesome gameshows. Taiwan has these hilarious talk/performance shows.

Singapore got nuthin on them. I was thinking about the TV network showing the interesting programs from other countries, but then realised there was no way in hell the SG govt would allow that. Because then everyone dun care about Singapore already, too boring.

Anyways, back to First Class. The series seems based more on Primary School than Secondary School. I mean c'mon, the pathetically lame jokes by Shanice or whats her name, the typical act smart kid, the fat kid. Fine, fat kidS.

But you could argue, one of the fat kids has a PSP. A PSP! Supposedly the people who made the series must've been thinking of that too, because a PSP is supposed to boost the entire ratings of the show.

The wig joke in episode 1 was pretty funny though. The pick-up line joke was okay funny. Only because I heard JF say it first haha.

They just don't behave like they are in secondary school. I mean, where are the sexual jokes, the being cool crap, the people doing pushups in different places?

Sigh.

Yeah, Public Display of Affection is pretty damned funny. They were having fun, while constantly looking at me and JF who were trying to mug, wtf. Damn weird. And JF can't concentrate with such a scene unfolding before him. I tried, but ended up trying to take a nap.

Then later, got a few aunties come and look for books on those shelves. Then they promptly stopped, and tried to look like nothing happen. Lol. See, my immaturity represents something.

Do I know anything about chicks?

In the words of Chandler Bing which I would also say,

"Fowl? No. But girls?...no..."

And my style of blogging has been slammed by everyone. Yet again. I'l stick to normal stuff i guess. Say goodbye to the essence of Seriousness When Needed.

No more sarcastic posts.

No more bitching.

Just amazing events that happened to me.

1. I went to school.

2. I mugged.

3. Went home, msned.

4. Slept for awhile.

5. Watched FRIENDS.

6. Blogged.

7. I'm going to study now.

With basketball today, my total ulcer count is currently 3.

1 from rebound.
1 from dribbling too high.
1 from failing to catch a super near pass.

I can just tell you guys are going to love this style of blogging. Let's try it out shall we? IMO, the conformist, boring style of blogging.

Oh look at me, haha i no time to update because EOYS coming up, il update some other time hahahahaha. Yeah, you guys love this kind of blogging right?

Just for those interested,
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4297251/1/The_Destiny_of_Tears

Yeah, its the link to my maple fanfic story. I'm going to put in in my personal details and whatnot haha. Its about 80% maple and 20% stuff that i like, so enjoy i guess. No one likes reading stories in this small section because of the template lol.

Woah, this week's Bakuman was wtfpwn. Two noteworthy pages haha.



Lol, like receiving test results. I can kinda empathise with them when your work is being judged by others.



YEAAAAAAAH Mashiro X Azuki! Muahahha, now he HAS to get her email address. You see, I'm getting all worked up about their romance. The situation they are in kinda reminds me of primary school hahaha...ok, i'm going to stop talking.

Catch you guys soon!

Wa, the kid is damn manly.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20081003/tts-australia-crime-crocodile-child-79adaf4.html

What the hell indeed. I finally caught my sister in the act. The act being opening up my folder containing all my songs and selecting those she deemed suitable and transferring them to her thumbdrive, then blasting them on her comp, which is right next to mine. And she tells me not to play my songs too loud. What the heck, this is the reason why we need to 饮水思源, remember your damned origins.

Thanks for teh tips Chester. I'm not used to sprinting, woke up today to a cramp in my leg argh. And I'm not mugging enough.

Just saying, I deeply regret saying that joke. It wasn't how my parents brought me up, and I have already apologised multiple times to the unrelenting female will. Will to bear grudges i mean.

Anyways, tomorrow is RE congress and i have to road marshall.

And we completed our short video for Digital Filmmaking today! Cmon, it wasn't exactly the best film, but i sure had a helluva time making it. Yes, wtf, internet too slow until can't upload. Will upload tomorrow, or later today maybe.

Nothing much. Except the fact that my sis' friends came over in the morning, which left me no mood to mug. Took a picture of myself suffering which i may post up later haha.

Surprisingly typed like 500 words of DoT.

During dinner made a joke. A bad joke. The scene was a woman complaining that her husband left her for a different woman the day before their wedding. I commented that it would be funnier if she found him sucking on men's pe*i*es the day before they were going to be married. This provoked my sister to shout out repeatedly that I was perverted and watched porn. Yes, what the hell. It was just a harmless joke.

I've been slacking too much. Seriously, whole day i just lay in bed and re-read the Hellgate London Novels which are damned nice.