Taggged to do this from Nicholas.

#1 The first person who tag/pass you is?
Err, the person who asked me to do the quiz was Nicholas, so Nicholas.

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
Fellow 3B mate.

#3 Your five impression of her?
Heh heh. Smart, truthful, forgetful, occasionally despo, and...a slight poser.

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Wtf, what is this a love question? Errm, play bball with me? Yeah, i suck, so its an honour for someone to play with me and not comment that i suck heh heh.

#5 The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
Err, the full phrase is kinda sick, so i'l just skip it and say something different. How about "Thanks for not pang-seh-ing me and joining Hz's parody group."

#6 If he/she become your lover, you will?
I will smile a professionally mask hidden smile. Before promptly disappearing and never re-appearing ever again. No but seriously, i'l be freaked out.

#7 If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be ?
What the... I told you NO! But just for the fun of the quiz, he has to chase me aggresively. Oh what the fuck did i just say?

#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
That would seriously be quite sad, because losing him as a friend would be rather stunning to me. Hmm, avoid him for the time being until i can find a way to rekindle friendship?

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be ?
Oh gosh. Maybe i....crashed the door when he was shitting, took a dozen pics, and uploaded it to youtube and thus amassing 1000000 views and comments like "This is some fucked up shit man."

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Watch Clone Wars. I don't really want to after knowing that Anakin has an apprentice (he's supposed to be a lone wolf damn it), but he wants to.

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is.
Damn you. Look up. Anyway, im kinda jealous because he is taller than me...

#12 How you think people around you will feel about you?
What the... Wasn't this a about your friend quiz? Ok nvm. Err, I have no idea.

#13 The characters you love of yourself are?
Loyalty. Thats number one. Next up, sincerity, overall friendliness, maturity, and...wit?

#14 On the contrary , the characters you hate yourself are?
Hmm, this seems to be a "discover your own strengths and weaknesses!" quiz. Err, i can bear a grudge, have hatred, occasional bad temper (believe it), dunno what else. Should be oodles more.

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
No idea. I'l be my own ideal person.

#16 For people that care and like you, say something to them ?
Thanks for everything guys. Short and Sweet.

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.
Hmm, although Nicholas already mentioned a few, i'l just give it a go.
1. Nigel (seriously, you need this to revive your blog)
2. Ye oon (you need this to stop procrastinating on updating your blog)
3. Sufyan
4. Jin Fu (me and Nicholas saying this should be enuff to make you update your 2 months stoning blog.)
5. Jerome (Yes, he needs to revive his blog as wells.)
6. Chester (No idea if you are reading this, but i know you have a blog and its been dead a looong time.)
7. Samuel Swee (Dude, your blog is in serious need of updating too.)
8. Michael!
9. Clement.
10. Haozhi i guess?

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Chester. Nothing so far i think.

#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
Clement. Male. He's too manly.

#20 if no.7 & no.10 together, will it be a good thing?
Samuel Swee and Haozhi. Ouch. I'l personally break them apart.

#21 What is no.2 studying about?
Ye oon. Geog boy hehe. Also, he's studying the art of fanboying over Genie.

#22 When was the last time you had chat with no.3?
Dunno. We talk quite often though.

#23 What kind of music band does no.8 like?
Err, i'm guessing...50 cents or something? But 50 cents not a band haha.

#24 Does no.1 have any sibilings?
Nigel. Yeah yeah!

#25 Will you woo no.3?
Sufyan. No way.

#26 How about no.7?
Err, I'd think not.

#27 Is no.4 single?
Oh wow, same number as Nicholas. He's not single, but he sure is flirting the heck outta people.

#28 What is the surname of no.5?
I'm pretty sure its Ong.

#29 What`s the hobby of no.10?
Haozhi. Errm, being with Wings?

#30 Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
Jerome and Clement. I guess so. Dunno.

#31 What is no.2 studying at?
Ye oon. RI.

#32 Talk something casually about no.1.
Nigel. He likes his hair alot.

#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
Chester. Can we stop it with the quesions?

#34 Where does no.9 live at?
Whoops Clement sorry.

#35 What colour does no.4 like?
Jin Fu. Would have to be black i think.

#36 Are no.5 and 1 best friend?
Nigel and Jerome. Good friends.

#37 Does no.1 have any pets?
Nigel. Yeah yeah!

#38 Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
Samuel Swee. Err, sam you decide.

#39 what is no.6 doing now?
Probably building up his muscle mass of something.

I'd to apologise for being such a zombie the whole week. Errhm, I lacked energy and enthusiasm in like everything I did, my mind was slow, and was not able to display my usual wit, heh.

And so, sorry to all the guys who were trying to tell me lame jokes, and me not getting it immediately.

Sorry to everyone I hung out with, and boring you people because I simply followed you at the back and slobbered like a mad dog. Including Jin Fu, Nicholas, Nigel, Ravins, Nicole, and errhm, anyone I didnt mention.

Well, time to get on with the blogpost.

I have a growing insecurity regarding the debates in class. Its darm sian that since I'm third speaker, Mike and Anu want me to impromptu everything. Argh, all the previous third speakers all had something to rely on, a script or something. And they had a substantive.

But, the correct way is no substantive for third speaker. So, i have to impromptu everything. Damnit this is a lot of crap.

Oh, and after watching Bhargav vs Haozhi's group debate about violence in video games, I wished that that was my topic. I mean, its the only category that I have sufficient ck.

Also, people keep telling me that my shampoo makes my hair smell like burnt matchsticks. I mean c'mon lah, I got like 3 quarters of the darned thing left, I can't possibly chuck the whole thing into the bin because it stinks up my hair. Right?

Went to tao nan today. As mentioned earlier, I was a zombie, dragging my feet through the school by myself, and later with friends. I think I went around the school campus like 6 times. Who cares.

Seems that there are only like 5-7 people from 6H that came back. Maximum. Heard more news about my old classmates, some was sad, some was funny.

Liang Jie and Lorenzo seem to be doing well. I mean, Liang Jie's in Swimming right now, and Lorenzo's in bowling. And they can do 20 pullups and 15 pullups respectively.

Which left me baffled at the side. Yes ye oon, i haven't forgotten your pullup prowess as well.

Submitted the essay for Renaissance competition. Its really different from my usual writing style, but yeah, I don't even have a unique writing style yet. I would like it to be a combo of murakami, Fitzgerald and possibly Gaiman though. Wait, I think that I'm overestimating myself...

Hmm, for some reason I've lost interest in shounen anime/manga. Shounen is like the action types. Instead, I find myself being drawn more to romance and comedy. Whats up with the change of mind, I dunno too.

And thanks amos, the liu one, for reminding me that there was such a thing as ouran high school host club.

Whee.

This is a Wicked Sick update. I mean, so many things have happened. Lets review.

1. NPCC Positions were released

2. Social Advocacy project was updated.

3. I got owned badly in Halo 3.

4. All the CCTs are over.

Ok, obviously there is one unimportant one. Yup, you guessed it, number 4.

They just HAVE to keep up the tests until the last darned week.

I got Sec 2 Head NCO.

Social Advocacy Project is expanding like crazy.

I would elabo, but im brain dead.

Argh, short update because i'm lazy.

Lit Seminar: Yay, this makes it the 3rd time i've seen macbluff. And got a close look at how Clement had to coordinate the stuff behind the cauldron. Bliddy well done mate.

Oh, and ASCI campus is...gigantic. Seriously. They have freaking spiral staircases, the cool ones, not the RI Junior Block wanna be spiral staircases.

They have a food court compared to canteens.

They have a LAN centre. Seriously.

Anyway, I kinda fufilled my duty as a Rafflesian by making life difficult for some ACSI kid presenting on Merchant Of Venice.

Why I did it?
1. I felt like it.
2. Seriously, his presentation was dam flawed.

Yes, i'm an arse.

And today, I discovered that I must be one of the worst people at volleyball to graze the earth. But its still fun lol.

Whoosh, Lit Genre Essay plus two tests. Due on Thursday and on Wednesday respectively.

I've done the Blog Post for English already. Political commentaries whee.

I've been criticizing a lot of things recently. I need to cut down lol.

Taking a breather. I'l blog about Lit Sem when I have the chance though.

Just take some time and read Bakuman! Seriously, its good...so far that is. There's only 2 chapters online, and Bakuman is by the creators of Death Note! Both the storyline guy who is ownage, and the art guy who is equally ownage. I mean, just look at this! Farney!



Oh sure, he's cool now.



But as most guys do, collapse when he thinks of the girl he likes.

Yeah, i do enjoy the occasional romance story. OCCASIONAL.

Yup, go onemanga.com to check it out. Its being updated regularly, like once a week, so enjoy!

Meh, this is the other half of my post earlier on in the day. Seriously, I like forgot to blog about what happened TODAY. Anyway, I'm bored, so yeah, here's the post (plus more pics!)

I'm glad that cl teacher didn't own me and amos for a crappy chinese presentation. I mean, we were like dam crap, but lucky she didn't scold us.

Mr AC didn't come. That meant 2 and a half hours of free time. Whee. I would've went with the rest to play bball, but I didn't bring P.E. Dang. So i ended up studying a bit of maths, chewing my food as slow as a cow at the canteen with Chiam, ravins, edene and nigel. Then we went back to the room, and played strip toss or whatever its called. Yeah, anurak joined in.

Basically you do that Harvey Dent coin flicking thing that looks damn awesome. We sat in a circle, and flicked the coin to each other. The person would catch, and see if you died, or if you lived. Live, you keep your clothes. Die, unbutton. Until the shirt no more buttons, then belt. Then pants button. Then zipper. Then...

Aiya put back clothes already lah, we not so hardcore haha. We were originally playing in project room, but scared Beatrice Cho Nigel's favourite maths teacher see us, and will own him for not setting a good example, so go class play.

I died first. Argh man, today psychomoto skills failed. Cant catch anything. On hindsight, lucky didn't go play ball, would end up embarrasing myself more than usual.

Then we played Huh-Who-What. Retarded. Then i watched Ren Jie play Tower Defence on laptop. Then good ol' Jason Tan came and managed to make Chemistry fun again. Whoopeee.

More pictures, since the last post wasn't really picture intensive.



Seriously, you can't hide forever, keng ma.



Aha, got you now. Oh dam, you ruined the picture.



Sure, it looks weak. But it isnt.



Dang anu is good at drawin.

Hey hey, thanks Sup, and sorry Sup. Yeah, you should know what I'm talking about. Nicholas sends his apologies too, but, as you said, just forget about it.

Parodies Night's first half was awesome. The second half was really lousier. The fifth play was OK, but the fourth really stinked. I think even our group's play would've been better. But yeah, the system is weird, I mean cmon, the best group from every teacher? Shouldn't it be the best 5 groups from the whole level?

I'm still slowly getting over the ACCAL thing. Last night was horrible though. Probably one of the darkest times of my life, like seriously. Because last night I diagnosed that nagging feeling in myself. The feeling that I was now afraid of putting in effort, and afraid of daring to hope.

I'm slowly healing though, thinking of quotes from people rather close to me, music listening, and myself trying to cheer me up. So yeah. There's still a feeling of dread though, that I would become one of the people sitting at the sidelines during NP.

The good thing is that I got to be a PSL. Yeah, sorry I ain't so enthusiastic about it. To be completely honest, I would trade it in anytime to become ACCAL. But yeah, I'm still glad I got in.

EDIT: BHARGAV HAS LEARNT HIS LESSON. SO THIS STUFF HAS BEEN DELETED. YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, MSSG ME OR SOMETHING.

Like I said, this is a pretty picture intensive post. I don't really feel like uploading 90 photos at once, so I'l start from photos from last year. Weird, I know.

Without further ado.




Haha, 2H last year. Notice Jf giving us dota tips.



Classic scene in 2H. Chinese Chess! We played it this way after getting bored with the classic style of playing.



Yeah, we did community service as a class!



Lol Yi Ming and Bryce. When WILL they stop fighting?



Vishaal is drunk.

Thats all for now.

Hi guys. It feels like forever since my last post. Yeah, its only been a day, but yeah. Anyway, this is gonna be a rather picture intensive post, with pics all the way back from Sec 2, because I recently found the cable to connect my phone to the comp lol. Oh, and me phone is old, so picture resolution sucks. I still remember the day when everyone swarmed around me shouting "Wa, N70, let me see!".

Pfft.

The main thing that i want to say is to Ye Oon, and Haozhi's parody group, good luck for whats ahead. You guys managed what I failed at, both ACCALship and Lit Parody.

But mostly to Ye oon, i hope you will make the most out of this opportunity.

To be completely HONEST, I went through a really wide range of emotions. When I heard that Ye Oon and Dhivian were called back for 2nd round of interviews, my first feeling was fear. Yes, it was the basic fear that I had really lost my chance to become ACCAL. The next thing that followed was that people say that "I'm damn sad." They weren't suanning me, just saying that they felt sad for me, because a number of them knew that I really wanted to be ACCAL.

So thanks, Jerry, Wen Zheng, Manfred, Sufyan.

At that point, the mood had swiftly changed to slightly emo, as guys were talking about the ACCALship. I was also feeling slightly frustrated, and as with all rivalries, whether friendly or not, jealous. Shaun was also clearly going through the same emotions as me, except that he showed it more explicitly. I was frustrated, that after 3 years, and me trying really hard from this year onwards, I still failed. I wasn't even called back to do interviews in the 2nd round.

The group activity managed to cheer me up a bit though. The next emotion that I felt was just pensiveness. I just kept quiet a lot. When Ye oon and Dhivian came out from their 2nd round of interviews, I just shook their hands and sincerely wished them good luck. There wasn't jealousy, only a bitter aftertaste lingering in my heart.

But, we are all on the same team. On the MRT back home, I met Havin. We had a nice long talk about results in school, CCA matters etc. He was in the top 5 people to be chosen for top 5 positions in NCC. I wished him good luck as well. On the bus home (yeah, MRT no go straight my house lol), I just thought about the time I spent in NPCC ever since I really decided I wanted to become ACCAL. I tried really hard during NCO camp. I tried volunteering for more stuff. I went for the Leadership Challenge although I wasn't chosen (I signed up lol). I tried having a greater presence in Sec 1 camp. I tried to be more enthusiastic.

As the bus passed by Tao Nan, I just got out. I stood outside the school for a while. And just looked at the school gates, the school logo, the crest, and stuff. I just felt good when looking at it. And after a few minutes, I left, and walked home.

Sure, you could say that I was being emo, but for me its closure. Closure on a chapter. The chapter of my life that I will forever remember. The chapter of me trying my very best to become ACCAL of NPCC.

And upon thinking of that, I smiled. I smiled a serious smile.

Thank you, everyone who helped and supported me throughout my entire journey of trying to reach my goal. Specific thanks go out to Samuel, Nicholas, Kieng Wee, Shaun, Jerry, Suwe, Manfred, Wen Zheng, and anybody I don't remember, sorry. I'm not really in the mood to find everybody.

VERY specific thanks to Sufyan and Jin Fu.

To Jin Fu: Thanks for listening to my ambition, my thoughts, and my plans of action. Even though some times u dao me on msn haha.

To Sufyan: Thanks for listening to me speak my mind during the second night of Sec 1 camp. Oh, and our various convos on msn, or in person.

Now, picture goodness. DAMNIT MY PHONE CANT BE DETECTED. IL TRY LATER.

A random convo.

Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
i cant read eh help me re scan =)=)=)
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
PAGE 4 AND 6 LOL
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
well i suggest you use your big brain to guess it
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
bang bang mang la da ge
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
bu ke yi
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
wo neng zhuo de you xian
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
wo de printer hen cha
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
ni zhe yang na suan shi jin li ne?
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
hai mei fa fen tu qiang ah da ge
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
bu chuo
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
*cuo
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
wo shi mei jin li
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
HAHA CHUO
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
dan shi
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
bo bian
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
na ge printer hen lan
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
WHAT IN THE WTH SLACK SLACK SLACK
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
REMEMBER THE TIME
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
U SAID
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
EH U HELP ME TAKE PLATES TO PUT BACK
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
AND WHAT DID I SAY?
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
YOU TELL ME
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
DID I SAY BO BIAN, MY HANDS HEN LAN?
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
SERIOUSLY
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
MY PRINTER IS 4 YEARS OLD
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
NOT SO HIGH TECH
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
YOUNGER THAN ME
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
THE SIDES CANNOT SCAN
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
IRRELEVANT POINT
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
MUST SCAN TEH 1337 SIDES
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
BUT IM VIBRANT, FULL OFF ENERGY, AND OVERALL CAN SEE TEH SIDES
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
SO DIS ONE ALSO SHOULD BE ABLE TO SEE SIDES
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
jajjajajja
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
I SUGGEST YOU REWIRE YOUR BRAIN
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
GO FOR A LOGIC COURSE
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
AND WHY AM I USING CAPS
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
LOLOL
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
WA LAU U WANT TO HAVE LOLO COMPETITION AH
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
LOLOLOL
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
UR TURN
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
I WIN BY DEFAULT LAR U SO SLOW
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
hahahahahahahhahahaha
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
hahaha...
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
The winner feels so empty.
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
nah no need le larh
Ccw [Stupidity incarnate.] says:
thanks anyway
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
I WAS IN THE TOILET
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
LOLOLOL
discountinG thE positivE GeeZ says:
done

Lets start off rationally.

OH NO NADAL LIKE TOOK OVER FEDERER'S PLACE AS NUMBER ONE!

Yeah, because I like Pete Sampras, and Petey lost to Federer. So naturally I would root for Federer, so Sampras looks better!

Anyway, I realized that i've just been spamming posts that are emo, sarcastic, witty (I think), retarded, painfully inadequate, picture-less (Yeah, try the last like 105 posts.).

So, pictures in...NEXT post.

For now, quotes that reflect what in the world i've been doing for the last few days.

"Eh Chiap, how many weeks in Term 4 ah?" Chiam.
"Dunno lah, its not really my problem. Hey wait, it is!" Me.
"Selfjack." Edene.

Nigel says something lame.
"Eh, if you were seriously meaning that, then I'd have to kill you." Me.
"Haha, good joke..." Nigel.
"No, I wasn't kidding." Me.

Nigel smiles in school.
"What are you smiling at!? This is not a happy place!" Me.

"Eh lets go ask cl teacher to give us more marks for our project." Me.
"Aiya, dun wan lah..." Nicholas.
"I thought u say that u are dam pissed?" Me.
"I am, but..." Nicholas.
"Fine." Me.

I GO SOLO.

5 minutes later.

"We got 5 marks!" Me.
"Wa, 猛！" Nicholas.

"Wait, you mean you haven't felt me getting more enthu in NPCC throughout the whole year???" Me.
"Yes." Kieng Wee.

"Eh the worse, during commanding you just zao xia 4 times only wad." Me.
"No, he can zao xia more than once in one command." Jon Ed.

Its weird. Doing the right thing makes me feel all empty inside and such. When teacher said stop writing, for once I actually stopped. And grinned around stupidly when everyone else was still scribbling. I could've done the question that I just found out how to do in the last minute! Argh!

Physics pratical tomorrow. OUCH.

I'm glad Phelps got his 8th Gold . Man, it sure was intense. Lezak is awesome too! Heh, I was mugging maths at grandma's house (Yes, I do need more time to mug...), when my cousins were watching Sg vs China Table tennis. Through two closed doors, my mp3, and my terrible singing which is only permitted behind closed doors, I could still hear him. He kept shouting, Singapore is leading!

I was surprised. Sg actually leading?

So, a few minutes later, I went out to check. We had lost the 1st match, and were losing the second. You just can't trust kids who don't know the sport.

Hmm, the camwhoring mentality is still lingering around me. For some reason, when I notice myself in the mirror, I'l just go, "Maybe I'l take a picture...". Yeah, I'm weird.

Not in love with myself, or my looks (although I think that I do look OK), its just a thought. And its weird, because I've never camwhored before! So there.

And I sorta invented a smiley! Well, at least i've never seen it before. Yes, this will go down in my pathetic history. The day I invented 0=). Its awesome. I was going o.0 and trying to =). Yes, my story is FASCINATING. Oh, and thanks Nicole, gave me the chance to 0=).

End Of Blog Post Before I Get Stupid.

Hooray! Michael Phelps has gotten his 7th gold medal! Hope he gets the last one, then he will break Spitz's record! Now, Spitz is a real nice guy too, he was actually complimenting Phelps and stuff for being able to surpass him and break world records and such. I need to learn from Spitz, 大人有大量.

Whoo, i just finished my ERP. Preferably, I would have liked more than a day to mug maths, but yeah i'l just have to stop procastinating. As mentioned in my earlier blog post, I threw the word limit out of the window. Lets analyse the instructions given.

Word limit: 550-600 words.

Wow! Did any of you catch the hidden meaning? What? you didn't? Lets look at it again. CLOSELY THIS TIME.

Word limit: 550-600 words.

What did you say? You mean you don't see what the fuss is all about? Sigh. Last time ah.

Word limit: 550-600 words.

Now you get it too huh! Word limit: 550-600 words., translated in bozo language actually means "Just go over the word limit, we dun really care lol. Just anyhow put in any elabo you wan, this instructions in just to confuse bozo people, like that guy Chen Wei, or also known as Chiap. Wa he stupid man, doesn't he know that word limit only matters in summary, he suk man lololol@@@@LoLOL. Yah, we gonna kope his marks and feel good about it, as he angsts over it we will laugh hohoho, like some santa claus liddat!".

Well, I have seen the truth! Which means the phrase can now be modified!

"Just go over the word limit, we dun really care lol. Just anyhow put in any elabo you wan, this instructions in just to confuse bozo people, like that guy Chen Wei, or also known as Chiap. Wa he stupid man, last time he din noe that word limit only matters in summary, he suk man lololol@@@@LoLOL. Yah, we gonna kope his marks and feel good about it, as he angsts over it we will laugh hohoho, like some santa claus liddat.".

Excellent.

On a side note, why is South Park so bleeding popular? I mean, The Simpsons can walk over South Park any day! The jokes are funnier, the art definitely better, and summore Simpsons is an established name lor.

Simpsons ftw.

On another side note, I was feeling really down over the last few days. Because of CCA interviews, the screwing up of our Lit Parody, sad stuff etc. Yah, but i managed to break out of the emo-ness. Here's something that I wrote. It really came deep from my heart.

Are you really my friend? I don’t even know anymore. We no longer talk, no longer share secrets, no longer do stuff that friends even do together. There’s a hollow hole in my heart, where our friendship used to fill. We have just drifted farther and farther away, why did this happen? Is it me? Was I uninteresting? I’m sorry that I may be uninteresting, but at least spend some time to acknowledge that we at least used to have a strong bond.

What should I do now? Act more like the people that you hang out with, so that maybe I can gain back a friend? Should I stoop down to the level of childish humour, perverted and vulgar swearings to make a crowd laugh so that you are willing to accept me as a friend?

What am I even doing now? I feel as if I’m in the middle of a wasteland, with only myself. Sure, I try to reach out to people, and they reciprocate, but only when I reach out. Then they go back to their business. No one ever reaches out to me.

Regardless of whether it is effort in schoolwork, in friendship, in life, it rarely seems to pay off properly. I’m sick and tired of it. But I will definitely continue living. I am not afraid of adversity. I am afraid of how long I am able to stand it.

End of emo-ness. Yeah, i was feeling REALLY down.

ERP 2. Word limit is 550-600 words.

I smile gleefully. Time to purposely break it.

Here's top Michael Phelps. Hope he breaks teh record.

"Any average adult human being needs some 2,500 daily calories to live a life without excesses," Argentina's Ole said. "Of course when you're in the presence of a monster like Michael Phelps, those parameters can go to hell."

My 100th post.

Wow. Lets see how far I'VE come.

Sec 1+2: 3.6
Sec 3: ??? (unknown until tomorrow, consfirm LOWER).

Sec 1+2: 2 amvs
Sec 3: 1 helluva crappy rushed cl amv+ 1 quarter finished amv... And ideas for another amv.

Sec 1+2: Circle of friends
Sec 3: Circle of friends plus more people!

Sec 1+2: Dota skill= meh.
Sec 3: Dota skill= meh.

Sec 1+2: I'm pissed!
Sec 3: Mask!

Sec 1+2: Hmm, maybe I should create a blog...Nah.
Sec 3: I created a blog.

Sec 1+2: Sian CCA.
Sec 3: Strive for ACCAL position!

Just a few of the stuff that have changed. Oh, and my next 2 amvs will feature Hoobastank's The Reason and Boys Like Girls' The Great Escape. Whee.

I'm having some difficulty churning out time to continue writing DoT. But then again its not like many people are eagerly awaiting it lol. But I enjoy it anyways.

Hmm, I have so many thingums to do. And my mom keeps urging me to learn how to make websites darnit. She thinks that I actually enjoying learning new programs to use for schoolwork...and so keeps urging me not to play video games and instead learn new computer programs and read model essays. Sure, thats FUN.

Anyway, I learnt video editing out of my own interest, and future projects that required the use of it was just a coincidence.

Now a totally random section!

Recommendations! Anime recommendations to show off my otaku-ness! Actually, I'm not that hardcore, you should go ask suf. But here goes.

1. Katekyo Hitman Reborn. As long as you get past the painful 1st arc which is crazy ass boring, the real fun starts. But if you skip, you won't know anything to have to do with the characters...

2. Gintama. I've only read 3 volumes (bought the darn thing). But its funny. Really funny.

3. Eyeshield 21. Most of you including past me, would think, EWWW american football! But its really good if you decide to give it a whirl.

Damnit, I've been trying my best to stray from this topic, but I just can't avoid it. As a youngster, you can't help but wonder about your future. The past and the future are hopelessly intermingled, so you can't help but feel a connection to your mistakes. Time can soften the blow, but it will never dissipate it.

I honestly did not do well for interviews at all. I was depending on it to really raise my status such that I could at least stand a proper chance of becoming ACCAL. But darn it, i was too foolish. I thought that as long as I poured my heart out and talked about my ambitions, it would be sufficient.

I should have prepared. Almost everything in life is dependant on cold, silent, accurate calculations. I should have prepared for possible questions. I should have taken it as a test. Should.

But even if you threw me back in time, I still may not prepare. I feel that one's ambition and hopes is something that comes pouring out naturally, not written down on a piece of paper and repeated out to impress whoever you want to. The theory was foolproof. But the world just made a bigger fool out of me.

My dad, who is like really experienced in interviewing people asked me how it went. I told him. I knew that I messed up bad. A voice at the back of my head went "It's a good learning experience."

Another voice sounded out, "Bullshit. Thats just an excuse made up by losers so that they wouldn't have to feel so bad about losing."

Many things in life are all or nothing. The gold or the dump.

I'm such a fool. By trying to be modest, I actually danced around the questions.

At this point I really feel like laughing at myself. Sink or Swim. All or nothing. First one up to bat.

I was just shitting myself. I didn't have the heart to go all out and completely thrust out all my good points to the teachers.

My only consolation is that I got my main point that I wanted across. Although I know that being ACCAL isn't the main point, but I'm still going to contribute to NPCC in any way that i can. If I'm not too busy, I'l probably join Buckley EXCO to help out, cuz I like didn't do ANYTHING to contribute. Which brings me to the question of how the heck im gonna get in in the 1st place...

Sorry guys, for making this 100th post such a serious post. To quote AC, I'm menstrual.

Oh, and my debating speech thingum still needs another 500 words... Not to mention the fact that I'm all squeezed out of ideas.

My 99th Post!

Awesome, i created this blog in April, and by now it has 99 posts! Hooray! I may save 100th post, then again, I may choose not to.

Macbeth Parody was OK. Although Bhargav forgot a rather important part, but our improvisation was good. Haha, we had good rapport.

My Indian accent was quite OK, i felt. We all performed quite well, despite we did not even have a full dress rehearsal.

And ERP 2 is due on Monday...Darn. Luckily I read finish the book already, and i'l probably end up using Harry Potter as my second book to compare with...Or, I'l just go crazy and finish the Life of Pi in 1 day. A challenge!

I'm not going to talk about the tests, as i believe that we should look forward..most of the time anyway. As such, I ain't gonna talk about CCA interview either.

History CCT, HCL ying yong wen test, Philo test make-up, Blog 3, Physics CCT. To top it off, i have resigned myself to review the work of the nice people at fanfiction.net who reviewed my work.

I'm used to it.

Hooray, its from ye oon! Hey i feel kinda bad for koping so much stuff lol.

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Drama Nerd   You sure do love the spotlight and probably have a very out-going and loud personality. Or not. That's just a stereotype, of course. Participation in the theatre is something to be very proud of. Whether you have a great voice for musicals, or astounding skills for dramas/comedies; keep up the good work. We need more entertainment these days that isn't television and video games (not that these things are bad, necessarily.)
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Macbeth parody MAY be tomorrow. Depends on whether it rains, and because of the rain, Bhargav's match.

Jeson just told us that our script very flail. Mike gave a kinda sarcastic well done.

We'l just go out there and give our best. Although my current best is a sleepy, flu-ish, sore throaty person with a heck lotta stress.

Our Triple Threat. Rose, MT, LN.

Hoho, keeping up a sustained Indian accent and singing repeatedly plus eating burgers and fries results in a sore throat with phelgm.

Hoho, I need to stop procrastinating. Im going to mug HARD now.

Hoho, i'm once again posting my inferior poetry.

Hoho, last day of holidays.

Wait, why am i hohoing again? Life sucks lol.

Time

Time.
Slips past us,
Sand through our fingers.
Water through cracks.

Time.
Crawls past us.
Perspiration and sweat.
Panic, not yet.

Tme.
Wounds that deeply cut us.
Dragging out the bleeding.
Saddening.

Time.
Medicine that miraculously cures us.
Warming and healing.
Comforting.

Time.
Half empty.
Half full.

So many things, so little time.

I saw you lying next to me.
Eyes shut, couldn’t seem to
follow me.
Awake, or asleep.

I saw you walking ahead of me.
Raised high, didn’t seem to
notice me.
Asleep, or dead.

I saw you smiling right at me.
Soul shining, wouldn’t actually
understand me.
Who was dead.

Parody meeting was screwed up. Nigel, will you STOP oversleeping? Xin Yong+ Jerome + amos eh why neva come leh? End up only half our group went. Pfft, the practising section was OK though, full dress rehearsal on Monday.

Played bball with nick for 1 hour plus, practicing mostly free throws. Lol, he taught me what his friend taught him, and so we spent a huge amount of time shooting and missing. I won the ABC thing, and my mojo was damn good, was on shooting spree. Then I made a phone call, and when i came back, the spree was gone haha. Kept missing afterwards. Argh, 1 v 1 with Nick, and i was pathetic. Can't dribble for nuts. Or sweets.

Bang Bang Vote for Wang man walked by with his RA lit group and shouted to me "Nice Shot!" as i missed. I was close though. The entire RA group laughed. John shouted, "3881 is illegal!". They laughed again. I'm not really sure 3881 is the anal code shit, but yeah, the number was about there.

Conclusion: Slowly, i'm improving by a miniscule scale i think. Lit RA people especially Bang Wang have a 100% success rate of free throws. Jolly well done, I would like to see THEM shoot. Oh goody.

Yes, i suck, but no need suan me right? But heck care lah, i just waved and smiled at them. Yes, appearance of the mask!

Oh, and also i got rejected for PSL appeals lawl. Meh, i was half-hearted when even signing up for the appeal anyway. I had a "I'm here to help, dun wan me then nvm lor" kind of attitude. Yeah, I seem to have an attitude problem, but I didn't really care anymore. Looking at a few people selected makes me say "GG" for the Sec 1s.

I havent done any hmwrk argh. I keep procastinating. In fact, im going to try and concentrate now. Bye.

I originally saw this quiz at someone i didn't know's blog. I felt it would be rude to take it, as i didnt even know the guy, but recently ye oon did it! So i can safely saw that i took it from him! Hoorah!

Yup, put ur playlist into shuffle and answer questions. For this, i'm gonna give myself 3 lifelines so i can take answers from lyrics instead! Yes, i act smart add stuff. Oh, and i din pile all my songs into 1 playlist, so there may be quite some repitition of artists.

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Mama- My Chemical Romance. Oh boy this is tough. Errm, I'm gonna take the 1st line, "we're all going to hell." So in a way, it answers the guy's question!

2 lifelines left.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Untitled- Simple Plan. Errm, I don't really have a proper personality???

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The World I Know- David Cook. Oh man, I guess I hope that I know enough about the person? And vice-versa?

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Strong and Strike- Naruto OST 1

Hurray! I'm feeling powerful today!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Simple Plan- I won't be there. I let people down!

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
The Sharpest Lives- My Chemical Romance. I like things to be sharp, to be clear. Hmm, actually i like to intepret things that areb't immediately obvious. Excluding geometry of course.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Stop and Stare- One Republic. Hoo Wee. I guess they think i'm weird haha.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
No Reason- Sum 41. No reason...to hate them!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Phenomenon- Thousand Foot Krutch. I like to think about mysteries surrounding the world.

WHAT IS 2+2?
Kanashimi wo Yasahisa ni- Some artist from Naruto. Hmm. Its kinda a sad song, so i guess, 2+2, something that seems simple can actually end up with some unhappy incident? Oh that was a real crap explanation. Ok, one more for the record.

I Don't Love You- My Chemical Romance. This is not getting easier. I'm guessing each 2 signifies seemingly perfect lovers in life, however them being together does not necessarily result in a perfect union, hence I don't love you. Whew.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
One Week- Barenaked Ladies. Errm, it only takes one week to get intimate with him? Oh crap, not intimate, close. Oh noes, i'l just stop now.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis. Whenever we are apart, I just cant get you out of my mind. Oh, and i'm emo.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I Kissed A Girl- Kate Perry. HOLY SNAP THIS IS EMBARRASING. It's like the total opposite. Go ahead, even the playlist is making fun of me...Sobs.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Last Resort- Papa Roach. Errm, I'l be a hobo and only get a job when its my last resort to survive!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Don't let the sun go down on me- David Archuleta. I wish that the days that we spent together would last forever.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Apologise- David Archuleta duet with Ryan Tedder. OMG the holy apologise has appeared. They think that I should...apologise more?

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Just Like You- Three Days Grace. No. Freaking. Way. Over. My. Living. Body. Yes, living, not dead.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
This Love- Maroon Five. NO WAY. If you play such a flirty/ happy song at my funeral, i'l go all ye oon on you and beat up anyone connected to suggesting the song.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Meet You There- Simple Plan. Holy crap, 1st I wont meet you there now i meet you there wtf sia. Next.

The Ghost Of You- My Chemical Romance. Ahh, I can talk to ghosts eh?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
The time of my life- David Cook. Hmm. The 1st line says "I've been waiting for my dreams to come true" or something like that. I have'nt fufilled all of my dreams! But thats not really a secret.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Bent- Matchbox 20. They are all errm, kinda weird? Be glad i didn't say that you guys are gay or something...

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?

She's The Blade- Sugarcult. No answer.

THIS POST DOES NOT NECESSARILY REPRESENT MY VIEWS ON ISSUES CONCERNING TEENAGE DRINKING, COPYRIGHTED STUFF AND SLANDER. ANYTHING MENTIONED IS NOT MEANT TO HARM ANYBODY, OR IF YOU WILL, ANYTHING CONCERNING THE PERSON. OR HIS FAMILY. OR THE DOG. I COULD GO ON FOREVER, BUT I'M BORED.

Yes, nowadays more bloggers are getting persecuted for posting their opinions. Kinda iroic when they proclaim free speech on one hand, and on the other aggresively maul anybody who speaks ill on the government. Like a bear pouncing on a rat.

Commercials can either be good or bad, impactful or easy to forget, irritating or amusing, short or long. You get the idea.

The Heinekein commercial is an example of a good commercial, in my opinion. It skillfully integrates in funny elements with the product that it is trying to promote, and to top it off, a humourous yet believable scene. I saw it a couple of times on Channel 5, and it brings a smile to my face. Watch it!

Another one that I enjoy would be the minty sweet commercial (can't remember the name). Its neither too long nor too short, and although it is plain retarded, its funny in a stupid way. And i remember it, blame myself for having lousy memory. So, its good.

On the other hand, we have commercials that are painful to watch.

Right now, the 2 commercials that I think are crappy are as follows.

1. The anti-dandruff shampoo that i can't remember the name.

The first part was typical, starting off with a question. In this case, as I was watching channel 8, the question roughly translated was, "What is the difference between a man and a woman?". It then jumps to the usual zoom-ins of dandruff in hair, and how the 1337 shampoo cleanses and rehydrates the scalp, before rejuvinating the scalp, which typically results in the hairs standing at attention. Useful if you need a self-defense mechanism, just use your head as porcupine spikes.

So basically, after they finish with the info, the screen suddenly jumps to that Korean singer that possesses the much sought after "non-threatening good looks", before zooming onto his face while he cruises by in some rich-kid car. And he suddenly goes "Wo Shi Rain", which means "I am Rain".

Ok, I know he is a pop symbol of sorts, but I just don't understand why they decided to chuck him into the ad like that. I mean, you look at the product, and suddenly this guy jumps into the picture proclaiming that he is "Rain" not unlike how I proclaim "I am drunk." Seriously, he could have said "I am drunk" and it wouldn't have changed the impact the commercial had on me. I mean, find a better way to intro his participation in the shampoo business! Like, let him parade around a little more with his good looks rather than throwing him into the rojak at the end.

DISCLAIMER: I AM A NORMAL MALE, WITH NORMAL TENDENCIES. I AM NOT GAY.

Now that i've successfully cleared myself of any accusations concerning the recent sodonomy issue and such and such, i can continue.

2. The Swensons Commercial. Yup, all of them.

Cmon, after viewing the commercials many times, I finally got the meaning of the commercials. They were trying to convince people that going to Swensons to unwind would be the best goddarned decision of their lives. I had to watch the commercials a few times before I could get it. And I'm a LIT student, specially trained in the field of over analysing and being super aware of hidden meanings. Nah, I aint that pro.

*For the model definition above, please refer to the wikipedia article "Kang Zi Yang"*

What? There isn't an article on him!!?? Blasphemy! His lit marks are impressively impressive!

Back to Swensons.

Well, I can only remember 2 commercials concerning it, one with the dirty kid with the cleaned car, and the other with the boy in the rain and a woman with dangerously heavy makeup wielding an umbrella-ella-ella-ella-eh-ehOMG my brain is degrading.

Other than the fact that the makeup could probably stop a speeding ferrari, I just did not understand why she did not want to share the umbrella with the boy.

And both boys proclaim "I'm SO going to Swensons!". They do it rather mechanically, like how the news reporter in Spiderman 3 announces, "This COULD be the end of Spiderman!". Oh I hope I didn't spoil the 1 year plus movie for any of you. But of course the pseudo american accents of the boy could not compare up to the real stuff.

Anyway, after going to Swensons, you would probably come out broke anyway. How to relax???

P.S. I'm running kinda low on new songs, so if you have any nice songs, send me or tell me! Preferably chinese, as i'm trying to balance my pathetic chinese music library with my English music one.

C div Rugby semi finals, RI vs ST. Andrews. So close yet so far. The ruggers really tried their hardest, and with every mistake that they made, I felt the pain together with every rafflesian there. It was so close yet so far. I feel sad and sorry for the rugger who missed the field kick. He must have blamed everything on himself. Thats something sad about a team game. The weight of the entire team's victory lies on your shoulders. Damnit. So close yet so far. Life.

Rejection. Something that i have gotten all to familiar with recently. Individually, it doesnt matter, but together it hurts my heart.

1. PSL application failed. I ain't gonna bother appealing, what will change? I probably failed because ksp went "wtheck is this ccw doing in npcc, i've neva seen him before." Oh, and i didn't suck up to teachers enough, so there.

2. Drumming application failed. GG. Only a handful got rejected and there i was. :)

3. CCA position application. Will probably fail. Refer to 1.

Damnit, I can't stand being ignored. Sorry lah, ask also never ask if i want to go for NDP parade. Sure, just neglect the rest of the squad. Good job ksp+AD.

Lets get the hair issue out of the way. I've learnt a valuable lesson. Do not close your eyes throughout the haircut. I had no idea short= crew cut. And as such, when i opened my eyes i got a bit of a shock. I would camwhore, but

1. I do not feel like it.
2. I'm afraid that this will turn me into a regular ye oon with his haircuts.

I'd like to talk about some things here. Firstly, I've realised that theres quite some talk about my mask and etc. Well, i'd like to clarify some things and at the same time talk about my philosophy about life.

Well, most importantly, RIGHT NOW, I am not really putting on a mask for anyone. If you read my poems so far, "even though sometimes i dun even know what i'm talking about", I talk a little (fine not a little) about masks. Well, to me there are a few kinds of masks.

1. The uber-pwnage mask that Ichigo puts on before promptly owning the crap out of everyone.

2. The mask that I usually put on, concealing my emotions.

Well, obviously I can only dream of number 1, how cool would it be to put on a mask and leap off a building? Oh, and you survive. But I usually put on 2 most of the time.

Number 2 is when one conceals dislike for someone, or just hides his/ her emotions. I like 2, not just because it is useful, but because i feel comfortable with it sometimes.

Before you go all, "you should be true to your heart", consider this. You really hate this guy. He is a real bastard, smiles at you like you are his friend and stabs you in the back later. Repeatedly. What do you do?

For me, I would just run along with his little charade, smiling and letting him think that i'm an idiot. It gives me comfort to know that he can't see the real me, openning up opportunities to stab him back. Yes, I may be petty. Before any of you get angry at me, I have to say that I have only done this once or twice in the past, and have not done it at all recently.

The other less lethal side of number 2 is just very simply, hiding your feelings. When you realize that you have just screwed up your EOY, what do you do? Just burst into tears? I think not.

I have not used ANY masks in the last few months, once again because of a few reasons.

1. There is no reason for me to use it. A.K.A No one i really dislike interacts with me now.
2. I have become rather detached.

So what this means is that after screwing up an exam, or some CCA matters, I do not feel anything. Feelingless, if you will. But I'm still sensitive to other things. I guess its because i've grown used to tests and such.

My philosophy is life, currently that is, is to do what i want to do. This doesn't mean staking my life on a blackjack bet, its just on a smaller scale. Thats how I feel anyway. I can't really cite any examples, but i'm pretty sure i've been sticking to it for the last few weeks.

Well, thats all folks!

I just had a crew cut. Details tomorrow.

Watched the Great Gatsby today. Well, it was rather interesting, seeing the characters being adapted into real-life actors and the world coming alive etc. However, in my opinion, its rather crappy. The actors didn't really make use of their screen time, with the exception on Daisy. Although some lines were delivered rather expressionlessly, the scene when she had to confront both Gatsby and Tom was excellent.

Also, I failed at bball today. The bad thing about failing in a team game is that you feel that you let your teammates down. Oh, and Nicholas pointed out that i always jump too quickly when trying to intercept the ball. Hmm, I'l have to try and time my reaction, as i always jump the gun.

And xiang sheng practice today was rather fun. The main problem is memorising all the lines. Also, for our Lit Parody, im gonna have to memorise lines too. Which is something that im really bad at doing.

Well, off to memorise lines. Bye. Oh, and the Batman sarcastic review may never arrive, depending on my mood. Yes, i exhibit qualities found in a girl.