And its all over, but my thoughts are still running about though.

Bought Mother's Day gift today, wowee. A full 2 weeks early.

My pens are mysteriously disappearing.

Jon Ed can't bleeding keep a secret seriously. So i'm just going to talk about it here lah, better here than having to repeat it to people.

ORA day. I bought bubble tea. And just asked one of the girls that sold me bubble tea for number. Failed. Shrugged, when back to breaking.

Sheesh, the way you guys talked about it, its like i cornered her, put my arms on both sides of her head and then turned on the charm. Man alive.

So yeah, i guess its closure? I mean i had closure 2 days after the thing happened (I lead a boring life ftw), because nothing else interesting happened, but you guys are acting like its the biggest thing since sliced bread lol.

P.S. My specs broke. Stupid thing rusted so much until the ends just came off. Oh well. Contacts tomorrow then haha.

Sometimes
On those especially cold nights
When the heart aches
My imperfections surface yet again

And with them
Loneliness
Sadness
Sometimes

I wonder, if the bell
really did signal the end
What could have been
With them

With you, again.

As this april starts to draw to an end, I'm kinda surprised to see that this unreasonably hot weather isnt dissipating. This april was kinda special, for the wrong reasons.

1. I sweat. A lot. Even more so in this kind of hellish weather (oh hur hur)

2. I get bitten by mosquitoes. A lot. Even more mosquitoes are hanging around in this kind of hellish weather (oh hur hur)

3. No handphone. Wait, what!? Could be worse though, I could have been a freak. But still....aaaawwwkward!

4. Seriously, fastest timing ever for 2.4 rerun, and wowee, i have to go to the washroom. Fantastic.

5. Tore apart the mystery of "Hit me up with almond milk tea!"

6. I actually added One Winged Angel to my ipod. Oh god. I feel like such a huge nerd. But hey, it has epic guitar!

Oh and Ye Oon, i'm hereby kicking you out of the unofficial "Losers with no social life" club that was started when we both realised that we were losers with no social life. You have too many girl contacts that you have to give them nicknames, and I expect to be seeing the next few named after words that end with y or ie, like honey or money. You were already on probation during OIP! But you have to get money first. Because no money no honee- *Some omniscient force smashes into me, leaving me unconscious*

Where was I? Oh yes, as April draws to an end, be prepared to listen to me rant about my boots even more. Darn boots.

Expect more totally random posts!

Expect me being totally ego and then shooting myself down!

Expect me checking out girls and then chiding others about checking out girls!

Okay, the last point was plain dumb, but hey, I'm feeling high now.

Guess I've finally broken free.

p.s. i hope i didnt insult anyone except ye oon, whom will take it in his stride and style hair more. Lol.

Premise 1: I was running this afternoon
Premise 2: The weather this afternoon was extremely hot
Premise 3: To run in extremely hot weather is stupid
Premise 4: People stare at stupid people

Conclusion: The VJC people, who after finishing their open house today, came out of their school only to see me clutching my specs in one hand and my ipod in the other, running around the perimeter of their campus. They stared at me because they thought i was crazy.

Yeah, i actually failed philo.

You know that feeling you get when a really cute girl comes up to you and asks you for your number? And you're thinking "hot damn!" while cooly going "err, sure why not?"?

What? You don't? Okay, i see a few stray hands up there, theres jf, ligen, mikenem..... But the rest of you guys don't?

Well, neither do I, you guys gotta tell me how it feels!

Haha, just thought it up earlier today. Anyways, today was basically some much needed mugging at the library after slacking away friday night and sat morn. Contacts are awesome, they provide like a complete clear vision, unlike specs- when you look out of like the corners of your eyes, stuff is still blurry.

I'd like to think that it made me more attractive, i mean i turned quite a few heads! Sure, you could argue that those heads were mainly turned because I seemed to be walking around the various floors several times to find an empty spot, but err...okay, i don't have an argument.

And there was this rather skinny (as in more skinny than me even) chinaman about my age and his girlfriend staring conspicuously at me. What, you never seen a 16 year old guy with contact lenses, wearing a black shirt with a hoodie and white three quads, sitting on the floor while leaning against a sofa thingum grimacing while reading Gulliver's Travels and checking out the pretty hot girl not too far away? Okay, change the pretty hot girl to my reflection in the lift, and you get a pretty detailed picture of what was happening in the library.

I guess I really tried my best today. I knew that i wasn't in proper condition the moment i finished my first round, my cardio was alright, but my legs felt strangely heavy. I shouldn't have bboyed so hard yesterday.

I just couldnt keep up with the 1 min 30 secs needed for 1 lap after the 3rd lap.

And 1 hour later, I had a migraine that hurt like a bitch.

It lasted 7 hours before I could finally get home and pop a Panadol.

All thats left is to continue walking I guess. Maybe I'll try for the 2nd run next week to improve timing.

11.05.
I can't forgive myself.

Now that i think about it, it could have been worse. Haha.

I just realised today that my arm is sorta twisted, i think from collapsing at a weird angle from attempting airchair on Sat. So yeah, i accidentally aggravated it by doing pushups yesterday. Training tomorrow, so I'm going to try not to push myself too hard, i couldnt do any freezes properly today.

And woah, NAPFA 2.4 tomorrow. Time to kiss breaking 11.00 goodbye. 2 months ago, I probably could break it, but hey, its my fault for slacking off.

Because i realised that i only seemed to be able to gym and breakdance OR gym and run OR breakdance and run. I forced myself into all 3 a couple of months ago, which exhausted me like crap and caused my results to deteriorate, so now, for some reason, I'm just breaking. Darnit, I swear, I will start actually properly exercising before this week ends.

Hmm, but npcc syllabus and boots polishing and contact lenses getting etc. are all on thurs, friday has road safety....

Aiya, just have to force myself to squeeze out some time. How bout running home in full npcc uniform on friday!?

Well, for some reason I feel this urge to blog about ORA even though nth much happened.

Firstly, there was the 4B "Sprint and block everyone" plan which worked...sort of. The sprinting to the front was really fun haha, with everyone especially Jf going "Oh shit, oh shit this is damn dumb" and me just laughing maniacally.

And then. We linked hands. And watched as quite a number of RGS girls slipped past by running on the pavement. Duuurrr.

Now, onto the booths. Nothing much, there was the BB booth game which was suspiciously difficult to play, the same ol random people running about and selling stuff. Me and Zheng Yang bought roses from RG bball. And then gave it to each other.

And then he had training and RETURNED MY ROSE to me. Tsk, rejected eh.

Well, there was this weird bout of slight constipation, followed by bboying with Mike. And then back to RJ canteen again. Met Suf, Isaac and Ye Oon, meh-ed around for abit, got rejected (oh lol), aaaaand.

Bboying again. Oh hur hur breaking outside ORA office during ORA the irony.

And met Jared! The random Cat High guy who had some siick moves. Oh yeah, I need to sms him to let him know my number. Hey there's nothing gay with a bunch of dope (or pseudo dope) bboys hitting each other up and bustin out some moves yo! Word!

Western fail.

Well, err ur almost 100% not reading this, but i hope i didn't freak you out lol.

ORA.

Well, at least i got round to it. It's been long enough. And strangely enough, I just feel...numb.

The weather's really heating up.

Won't stop.
Burning Sorrow.

I'm getting close, I can feel it.

NOOOOO. I DO NOT RANDOMLY HIT ON PEOPLE, DON'T BELIEVE WHAT SD SAYS.

On a side note, i cant believe i spent 1 and a half hours doing some admin stuff. Brill.

I think its important to review the weekend.

I think we all learnt a valuable lesson.

Stay away from video games, no matter how unaddictive it may sound. I mean, i was laughing at RJ playing Shattered Galaxy, a 2002 Nexon game with sad sad graphics on thursday.

3 days later, A.K.A. today, i was spewing out Shattered Galaxy jargon like "Poc D5!" and "Arbs at A2" and of course "AA fire on B4!". I also started explaining to my cousin the evolutionary paths of Shades to Banshees.

Oh god, seriously, I need more discipline, as such I have decided to lay off the Shattered Galaxy for like at least a week.

Time Control Magician.

That fog.
Who those figures are
Who...are you?

For those whom I have an inkling
I wonder
If i'll see you at the end with me.

I've already lost so much of you
that I'm not sure if I should just let you go.
You were walking next to me not too long ago
but then
I blinked.

I'm not exactly sure
what to do in midst of this
I guess

I'll keep on walking

Thanks to RINPCC sec 4s plus CIs for a really great birthday surprise.

Thanks to 4B'09 for the rites of passage into 16 hood.

Thanks to my parents for the sweet dinner.

Thanks to anyone and everyone who wished me a happy birthday. Now, if you know Wesley, scoot ahead and wish him a happy birthday too, apparently, his bday is today as well haha.

And I'll be sure to treasure this year.

Haha, got stared at again by RJ people, but this time I got compliments as well hoho. Ego boost. Needed one of those after having my bboying standard plunge.

Gotta love Elastic Illusion's jokes, seriously damn funny.

"Now, to do the windmill, you have to pop...as we say in bboy techmanology."

"Now you wanna make sure that you're spinning on your back, and not your butt, if not it becomes a buttspin."

"If you mess it up and get back up on your feet, your girlfriend is gonna tell you that she's going home with that guy *points to random guy*."

Argh, jus finished lit presentations and physics quiz, and 2 MORE TESTS next week. With projects. And extra pizzaz.

K k, off to settle npcc admin wargh.

Ah, back to NPCC. With my voic still terribly messed up, which means I can't shout. Much. I like shouted twice at the Sec 2s at the beginning of training and my throat hurt like some...thing.

And wargh, after a week of falling ill and rest, my fitness level happily drooped again, leaving me pretty pissed. But yeah, this thurs must go gym hoho!

Since my not-so-sweet 16 is coming up soon, a lone memory from really long ago popped up. It was my grandad telling me to get a girlfriend by the time I was 15/16, and me being all like "err okay."

A few years down the road, if he brings it up again, or my relatives ask me "Eh, why no girlfriend?", I'll respond by throwing my head back and laughing. I would then start coughing while telling them that I believe that my charm has not blossomed yet.

Ah excuses.

Which reminds me, the RJ people are really staring at me whenever I break. What, you never saw a sec 4 NPCC guy wearing a pseudo-beanie doing headstands on the floor?

On second thought, I don't really know the answer haha.

Sorry for being such a child the last few days guys. Harping on stuff that had already been lost, frowning and crossing my arms because things didn't go my way...I've still got a long way to go. Thanks to Shu De for again slapping me out of my slump, these mood swings are really pretty irritating.

Let's Groove.

Oh man, I just can't help but let a wide grin spread over my face. Gotta love their YOUTH ROMANCE haha.

To be honest, I'm feeling pretty damned lousy now. Missed both SPF and SI rank. Okay, the latter was kinda a long shot when i submitted a long time ago, but the former...I thought i got over it, but i just burned myself when I read ye oon's blog again. Darnit, I think I need to stop being so sensitive, and be more sensible, sensitive things get you nowhere in life. It makes you lose out to others by a mile, in my personal experience anyway.

And I'm hoping for some good karma to come my way soon, come on. I haven't had a truly good break in ages. And I've been trying my best to help people recently, so hey, cut me some slack will ya? I've failed my philo assignment, my chinese test, my chem (almost) and my health recently, so yeah, hoping for something good to raise my spirits.

Damnit. I just can't stand losing for things that I really care for.

I need the strength to go on.

Did something meaningful today.

Wasn't CIP, didn't get hours for it, it didn't take that much of my time, and to most of you guys it probably isnt much, but to me it is. So yeah, im feeling quite good.

Unfortunately that feeling was ruined when i came home to no internet when i really needed music fix.

So, tell me who my friends really are.

And on another seperate issue, today, I made the decision to stumble into something complicated. I guess its not exactly in my line of duty, but if things don't work out, hey, you just have to make sure that it works out. It's my first time doing something like this, and I've never actually experienced the end result before, sadly. Got to play my cards right.

Nope, sorry guys, I didn't go asking girls out.

On a seperate note, this is a pretty ironic time for my hormones to die off. Those few days that my hormones were put on hold due to my falling ill, gave me my old perspective to things, which is good. A less hormonally-charged perspective, which makes me question some of the stuff I've been thinking about doing recently.

Yup, this is a pretty darned abstract post haha.

Somehow, i don't know if its ignorance, but it cuts me deep. Perhaps even deeper than your arrogance.

Glad that I'm standing again. Oh and Nigel, if you're reading this, i hope my jokes didn't offend you too much? *Insert smiley face*

Your lips like sugar
I couldnt even tell
Devil black heart
You're just a love machine.

Okay, that was quite epic fail, but I wanted to write something that had to do with the songs that I'm listening to, so yeah, guess if you can haha.

Well, I fell ill during Monday, Sunday night i was damn shagged, Tuesday was spent reccuperating, today i went back to school. Darn it, I've got so much npcc admin stuff to settle its not even funny, have to settle the sec 2s leadership stuff, the teacher's repeated requests for change, sec 2s cip, sec 2s enrichment, police heritage course stuff etc. Oh, and still have to provide for updates every training. Bleeding. Brill.

And on Monday, being half-dead, ye oon called me with 2 important pieces of news. 1. I had to come up with a list of 7 sec 2s to send to NPDP support, and 2. He started working on windmill second rotation. I was pretty unhappy with both, the first being that I'm damn tired and still have to come up with 7 people, and the second being that Effort= Distance (Time in this case) times Force does not necessarily result in learning the damned move. Only solution is to just hardcore mill training when I fully recover...Hmm, to play safe I think I'l start on Sat or Sun. Whee, mill training at the library will get me kicked out.

Off to settle the mountain of NPCC stuff.