My 100th post.

Wow. Lets see how far I'VE come.

Sec 1+2: 3.6
Sec 3: ??? (unknown until tomorrow, consfirm LOWER).

Sec 1+2: 2 amvs
Sec 3: 1 helluva crappy rushed cl amv+ 1 quarter finished amv... And ideas for another amv.

Sec 1+2: Circle of friends
Sec 3: Circle of friends plus more people!

Sec 1+2: Dota skill= meh.
Sec 3: Dota skill= meh.

Sec 1+2: I'm pissed!
Sec 3: Mask!

Sec 1+2: Hmm, maybe I should create a blog...Nah.
Sec 3: I created a blog.

Sec 1+2: Sian CCA.
Sec 3: Strive for ACCAL position!

Just a few of the stuff that have changed. Oh, and my next 2 amvs will feature Hoobastank's The Reason and Boys Like Girls' The Great Escape. Whee.

I'm having some difficulty churning out time to continue writing DoT. But then again its not like many people are eagerly awaiting it lol. But I enjoy it anyways.

Hmm, I have so many thingums to do. And my mom keeps urging me to learn how to make websites darnit. She thinks that I actually enjoying learning new programs to use for schoolwork...and so keeps urging me not to play video games and instead learn new computer programs and read model essays. Sure, thats FUN.

Anyway, I learnt video editing out of my own interest, and future projects that required the use of it was just a coincidence.

Now a totally random section!

Recommendations! Anime recommendations to show off my otaku-ness! Actually, I'm not that hardcore, you should go ask suf. But here goes.

1. Katekyo Hitman Reborn. As long as you get past the painful 1st arc which is crazy ass boring, the real fun starts. But if you skip, you won't know anything to have to do with the characters...

2. Gintama. I've only read 3 volumes (bought the darn thing). But its funny. Really funny.

3. Eyeshield 21. Most of you including past me, would think, EWWW american football! But its really good if you decide to give it a whirl.

Damnit, I've been trying my best to stray from this topic, but I just can't avoid it. As a youngster, you can't help but wonder about your future. The past and the future are hopelessly intermingled, so you can't help but feel a connection to your mistakes. Time can soften the blow, but it will never dissipate it.

I honestly did not do well for interviews at all. I was depending on it to really raise my status such that I could at least stand a proper chance of becoming ACCAL. But darn it, i was too foolish. I thought that as long as I poured my heart out and talked about my ambitions, it would be sufficient.

I should have prepared. Almost everything in life is dependant on cold, silent, accurate calculations. I should have prepared for possible questions. I should have taken it as a test. Should.

But even if you threw me back in time, I still may not prepare. I feel that one's ambition and hopes is something that comes pouring out naturally, not written down on a piece of paper and repeated out to impress whoever you want to. The theory was foolproof. But the world just made a bigger fool out of me.

My dad, who is like really experienced in interviewing people asked me how it went. I told him. I knew that I messed up bad. A voice at the back of my head went "It's a good learning experience."

Another voice sounded out, "Bullshit. Thats just an excuse made up by losers so that they wouldn't have to feel so bad about losing."

Many things in life are all or nothing. The gold or the dump.

I'm such a fool. By trying to be modest, I actually danced around the questions.

At this point I really feel like laughing at myself. Sink or Swim. All or nothing. First one up to bat.

I was just shitting myself. I didn't have the heart to go all out and completely thrust out all my good points to the teachers.

My only consolation is that I got my main point that I wanted across. Although I know that being ACCAL isn't the main point, but I'm still going to contribute to NPCC in any way that i can. If I'm not too busy, I'l probably join Buckley EXCO to help out, cuz I like didn't do ANYTHING to contribute. Which brings me to the question of how the heck im gonna get in in the 1st place...

Sorry guys, for making this 100th post such a serious post. To quote AC, I'm menstrual.

Oh, and my debating speech thingum still needs another 500 words... Not to mention the fact that I'm all squeezed out of ideas.