Yesterday was great, thanks to Ye Oon, Mike, Xin Yong, Jon Ed, Nigel, Jin Fu, Jon Ed's parents.

Toprock, physio, swimming, ps2, STUFFING MYSELF TO THE MAX, ps2. Damn it, i didn't get drunk.

Just woke up from a pretty painful dream. Shall not mention it here.

And can someone tell me, how to shut off your emotions? This everlasting mood of angst and pensiveness doesn't seem to lift, and I'm really getting tired of keeping up a front of cheeriness to hide it.

Hopefully I'll get through it, get through all those ghosts of doubts.

这样地缺乏信心，怎么能够面对生活的阻碍呢？可恶，来到了这个地步…这是怎么搞的…不是已经答应过自己吗，世界强食弱肉的道理，不能露出自己的弱点。

I need something, anything, to reassure myself that I'm actually good for something.

And I guess all these self-esteem issues arose from all the failures I've been having ever since Sec 3.