Well, now that that's over, its time to blog. I shall do it in a systematic way, as AC says that my hamartia in essays is that i do not have a clear organisational pattern.
Thursday
Well, i just feel that George Tan didn't do the right thing, counting to 10 before walking out of the classroom, making everyone run after him to pass up their exam papers.
Seriously, after you screw a test, life sucks, you dun want to tell people how you fared, or compare answers, you just want to slump in your seat and watch time fly by. A kind of frustration, or sadness, or remnants of sadness lodges in your chest and throat, when you speak, it takes a lot of effort.
Making people who are emo run after you isn't the right thing to do. Chee Keen would never had done that. Sorry, but thumbs down for that George.
Friday
1. Played handball. I couldn't really catch the ball, due to poor hand-eye coordination. Was probably too tired. Oh, and i managed to save my specs thanks to the fact that i passed it to Xin Yong before playing.
2. Physics remedial. Or make-up lesson if you will.
Well, I had a hard time convincing the people that it was now compulsory. Overall quite rewarding.
3. Hancock
It sucked. Only Will Smith and a few laughs managed to drag the film from my "Really crappy" list of films.
4. Macbeth play
Not bad. Witches were awesome, Macbeth was slightly above average, Lady Macbeth not bad as well, Macduff was rather crappy, or at least i think. Quite alot of hidden messages, fun to decipher them.
Saturday: Spent the whole day basically being groggy, not doing much work. Ok, i lied, no work was done.
1. Tuition
Not much
2. Grandma's house
Two and a half-men at 7.00p.m. saturday is usually the biggest highlight of the day.
Well, thats all for the organised stuff.
I heard that the Sec 3 team that NPCC sent in to Nanyang Girls won first. Well, this is when the difficult part comes. I had wanted to join the team, but due to too many people, I ended up not being inside. I didn't really want to insist on it, as i thought it would just be another competition.
Well, let me share something. I have rarely won before. The only time i was first was because of PSLE, and even until today it haunts me as a fluke. I managed to supress it rather permanently, but it just keeps bursting out at times.
Well, the previous 2 competitions that i took part in, we had such crappy placings that RINPCC was adamant in not even recognising the fact that we had participated in it. The worst was campcraft. We spent 3 months training 4 times a week for it. In the end, a different part of the team screwed up, but who cares? We are still the same team. We got such lousy places that the CCA did not even announce it or give us ANY recognition.
Well, they only announce competitions that we get top 5 i think. Anyway, while a part of me is glad that we won 1st in the competition, the other half of me is filled to the brim with jealousy. Had i been there i would have experienced the joy of being first, more importantly, the feeling of recognition.
Or maybe the feeling is deeper because of what AC told us. He said that the list of CCALs and ACCALs are already out among the teachers. NPCC interviews haven't even started. That means the interviews are just something to make people think that they actually have a chance to have a last minute change of importance in NPCC.
I know I'm pathetic. But i'm just a human being. I'm not perfect. And i never will be. Like I mentioned before, im weak. I think the only thing that i can do, or must to is to purge my emotions. Its the only way i can carry on. Carry on with life. Life is painful.
Well, at a pathetic attempt to lighten the mood, I'l post this gifs that i've been working on. I'l see you guys soon.
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