"Wings symbolize freedom for those who have none."- Cissnei from Final Fantasy 7 Crisis Core.

Well, thats a nice quote. No offense to Haozhi, but wings are nice to use in poems. Anyway you are too sensitive to the word, or its connotations...

I just realized that i can force myself to become emo, and vice versa. Its quite a useful technique, allowing me to conceal my emotions rather well.

You smile at me.
I looked back at you.
And forced out a smile.

Nah, thats not a poem.

I think i messed up this maths test pretty bad. Well, after i finished the test i simply remained emotionless. I am still now. Well, having control over your emotions is a good thing i guess.

I was forced to confront an ugly reality yesterday. When asked about my G.P.A. in order to determine some stuff for FPS, as we would potentially be missing the EOYS if we went to America.

It just reminded me of my current dilemma. The pulling up of my results in supposed to be my top priority. But yet, i still go for CCA, sign up for DMP etc. I'm just so confused.

I need some time to sort out things in my mind.

Well, i was talking to Nicholas about retirement life. He wanted to live at a farmside, owning a ranch or something in New Zealand. Well, its pretty unique compared to the standard Singaporean dream of 1. Get a degree 2. A good job 3. Cash.

As for me, i somehow am unsure of how to enjoy life. What i do know though, is that i want to take a nice long break. Maybe meditate near a waterfall, or write a book while having a picnic.

Which brings me to my next point. I was just thinking about the life one can choose if he or she frees himself/ herself of all obligations. Well, i was thinking about what I would do.

Probably, in the morning i would go for a jog to refresh myself, followed by a nice walk along the beach, taking in the fresh air. I would return home to maybe a bit of computer gaming, followed by writing a book, or reading one of my purchased books on how to speak Japanese. Maybe I would go out in the afternoon, or just relax at home, maybe making my amvs.

In the evening, i would go for CCA, have fun with my friends. At night, we would either go home, or hang around, not too late though. At night, I would watch chinese drama serials, listen to some mp3, and chat with friends online.

I think i sound like one of the people at match.com describing their perfect dates lol.

Freedom. Do I really want that?

Anyway, NEA responded to our social advocacy letter, which was to propose a charge for the use of plastic bags. At least they responded, unlike SEC. I sent SEC a letter and an email and its been 3 weeks or something...

Anyway, NEA didn't really answer our question or directly comment on our proposal. We are meeting Mr Adrian Chan tomorrow to discuss on the next step to take.

Don't you dare talk to me,
I'm undeserving of your sympathy.
I deserve better.

Don't you smile at me.
You know it yourself,
the horror that i'm in.

Don't you act like nothing is wrong.
Your sins.
The awful things that you did.

I will not be friendly with you,
I will not hide my distaste for you.
The only thing i will do,
Is to show you unapology unmasked.